September 10, 2009 at 4:51 pm (personal)

as we jostle each other playfully, trying to all fit into the camera lens, i sober up at the thought of how our smiling faces will be permanently frozen in that moment forever in a folder in my computer, but that one by one, the faces will slowly disappear from my life – as soon as next week, in fact.

i have discovered that if you tell yourself something often enough, you actually start to believe it. and so, i happily pretended that the two people closest to me were not leaving anytime soon.
but, they are.
and i cannot pretend to not feel anything about this anymore.

today, as we all sat around the table, drinking coffee, laughing, taking stupid pictures; i realised that all the things we did together, as a group, all the things i took for granted, we will not be doing anymore.

everyone’s leaving, and i feel so alone.

i will miss you. and you. and us.

my heart hurts.

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1 Comment

  1. Gin said,

    i know how u feel T_T

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